Thankfully gone

When I was a child
of eleven years
the other kids would jeer
.
When a child of thirteen years I wanted to disappear
.
When I was a child
of seventeen
I no longer showed my fear
.
When a child of nineteen years I became a black marketeer
.
When I was a child
of twenty one
my life began to veer
.
When a child of twenty three I screwed up that whole year
.
When I was a child
of twenty four
I let them interfere
.
When a child of Twenty Six I wished I wasn't here
.
When I was a child
of Thirty Two
I cried in my last beer
.
When a child of Thirty Five I thought I had your ear
.
When I was a child
of Thirty Eight
I thought our love was dear
.
When a child of Forty One three words I longed to hear
.
When I was a child
of Forty Four
I swore it all looked clear
.
When a child of Forty Six I wished I knew a seer
.
When I was a child
of Forty Eight
I slipped down in first gear
.
Now a child of Forty Nine I just yearn for.........a peer.