I did not provoke
the punch to my heart
nor did I expect
the emptiness; the cleft
.
Like a T-Shirt snagged
on a roses thorn
when finally released
a gaping hole was left
.
on a roses thorn
when finally released
a gaping hole was left
.
Though you were hurting
and I knew you would go
I never did think
I'd feel such a loss
.
and I knew you would go
I never did think
I'd feel such a loss
.
I try to remember
all that you went through
you thought I was burdened
yet were never my cross
.
all that you went through
you thought I was burdened
yet were never my cross
.
Early that morning
I was wakened from sleep
and knew that the call
could be nothing but bad
.
I was wakened from sleep
and knew that the call
could be nothing but bad
.
In the short time it took
to jump out of bed
and run to the phone
I was already sad
to jump out of bed
and run to the phone
I was already sad
.
They all say you're better
no longer in pain
I wish I could see it
as beautiful travel
.
no longer in pain
I wish I could see it
as beautiful travel
.
The last memories I have
are of you in that bed
staring at nothing
my fear you'd unravel
.
are of you in that bed
staring at nothing
my fear you'd unravel
.
I'm sure I should heed
the words that I spout
to those that I counsel
it just seems so rough
.
the words that I spout
to those that I counsel
it just seems so rough
.
I know you are painless
that's great but I know
your last endless days
like sinew were tough
.
that's great but I know
your last endless days
like sinew were tough
.
I guess it will take time
for the horror to subside
when memories turn nice
I knew that it would
.
for the horror to subside
when memories turn nice
I knew that it would
.
I must remind myself
minute by minute
that although the pain has shifted
for you, "it's all good"
minute by minute
that although the pain has shifted
for you, "it's all good"
.
.
Thank you for all the love you've freely given to me, for all the times you've held me when I was in pain, for just being my father...I will miss you dad.
